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  It was nine o’clock and time for Jonathan’s morning ritual. He grabbed his bowl of cereal with sliced banana and turned on the TV to a station in Oregon. “Barely made it in time,” he told Chica, who’d settled on the couch beside him. “We shouldn’t have taken such a long walk.”

  Her only response to that was a big yawn.

  “You know, you’ve got a bad attitude,” he said.

  She let out a bark.

  “And you’re jealous,” he added, making her whine. He put an arm around her and gave her head a good rub. “But I’ll keep you, anyway.”

  The commercial for laser skin treatment ended and Chica was forgotten as an image of the city of Portland came on the screen, accompanied by perky music. A disembodied voice called out, “Good morning, Oregon!”

  Then there she was—trim, blonde and beautiful—seated at a couch in a fake living room next to a gray-haired guy wearing slacks and an expensive shirt.

  Scott Lawrence. Jonathan frowned at the sight of him. Media guys, they were just too smooth. Now who’s jealous?

  He was, of course. Talk about stupid. In order to be jealous of other men, you first had to be with the woman. Jonathan was not with Lissa Castle, never had been.

  “Well, Lissa, I’m sure your weekend was stellar,” Scott said to her.

  “Yes, it was.” She had such a sweet voice, so full of cheer and kindness. Lissa had always been kind.

  “Did you have a hot date?” Scott teased. “What am I saying? Of course you had a hot date.”

  She neither denied nor confirmed, just sat in her leather chair and smiled like the Mona Lisa in a pink blouse.

  Which meant she’d had a hot date, Jonathan deduced miserably.

  Her cohost turned to face the camera. “Speaking of dates, some of you out there in our viewing audience might be doing internet dating and finding it frustrating.”

  “It can be stressful when it comes time to meet that other person off-line,” Lissa said. “And that’s why I know you’re going to appreciate our first guest this morning, who’ll be sharing tips with us on how to transition from online to face time.”

  Sometimes even face time didn’t win a girl, Jonathan thought sadly, not when the girl was out of a guy’s league.

  He’d been in love with Lissa ever since he’d discovered girls. In fact, Lissa had been the first girl he discovered when she moved in next door at the age of nine. They’d become pals, which was great when he was nine. But as they got older and she got even prettier, Jonathan began to look beyond the borders of friendship.

  He wasn’t the only one. During high school, his friend Rand took a new interest in Lissa once she became a cheerleader. And she was interested right back.

  Hardly surprising, since Rand was the cool one. When they were kids, everyone had fought over Rand while picking teams for playground softball games. In high school he’d been captain of the football team. The boys all wanted to be his bud and the girls all looked at him like he was a free trip to Disneyland.

  As for Jonathan, he was captain of...the chess team, and hardly any girls looked at him at all. Not that he’d wanted any girl but Lissa.

  No matter what he’d done, though, he couldn’t win her interest. She always thought of him simply as her good friend.

  He’d wanted to be more. When they were juniors, in the hopes of getting her to see him in a new way, he’d sneaked into Icicle Falls High early on Valentine’s Day and taped a hundred red paper hearts to her locker.

  But she’d thought Rand had done it. Rand happily took the credit and took Lissa to the junior prom. And Jonathan took a swing at Rand. And that was the end of their friendship.

  But not the end of Rand and Lissa. They were an item clear through senior year.

  As for Jonathan, he wasn’t an item with anyone. He’d tried, gone out with a few girls as desperate as he was, but every time he’d closed his eyes and kissed a girl he’d seen Lissa.

  After everyone graduated and scattered he still saw her on holidays when she was in town visiting her parents and he was over at his folks’ next door. Once in a while they’d talk. He’d say brilliant things like, “How’s it going?” and she’d ask him questions like, “Anyone special in your life yet?” He’d never had the guts to say, “There’s been someone special in my life since I was nine.”

  When his dad died, she’d sent him a card telling him how sorry she was. Mostly, though, she just waved to him while hurrying down her front walk to catch up with girlfriends. He’d tried not to see when she left on the arm of the latest local whose attention she’d captured.

  A couple of summers ago, he’d seen her when she came home to surprise her mom for her birthday. He’d been at his mom’s, up on a ladder painting the side of the house, when she called a cheery hello from next door.

  He’d almost lost his balance at the sound of her voice.

  “Jonathan Templar, paint specialist. And I thought you were only a computer genius,” she’d teased from the other side of the hedge that ran between their houses.

  He’d had a perfect view of her from his perch on the ladder and the view was great. She’d looked like a cover girl for a summer issue of some women’s magazine in her pink top and white shorts.

  “That, too,” he’d said, then asked, “Are you in town for long?”

  “Only the weekend.”

  He knew what that meant. This moment was all he’d have with her.

  “We’ve got Mom’s big birthday dinner tonight. Then brunch tomorrow and then I’ve got to get back to Portland. I don’t think I’ll even have time to bake you any cookies. How sad is that?” Before he could answer, her cell phone had rung. “I know, I’m on my way,” she’d said, and ended the call. “I’m late, as usual,” she’d said to Jonathan. “I’d better get going. Good to see you, Jonathan. You look great.” Then she’d hurried off down her front walk, her long, blond hair swinging.

  That hadn’t been the only thing swinging. Watching her hips as she walked away had been hypnotic, addictive. And dumb.

  Jonathan had leaned over to keep her in view just a little longer and lost his balance. With a startled cry, he’d grabbed for the ladder but only succeeded in bringing the bucket of paint down on himself as he fell, turning him blue from head to toe. A one-man Blue Man Group act.

  He’d bruised his hip in the process, but his ego had taken an even bigger hit when Lissa came running to where he’d fallen. “Jonathan, are you okay?”

  He’d been far from okay. He’d been mortified, his face probably red under the blue paint. But he’d said, “Oh, yeah. No problem. I’m fine.”

  Then his mom had come out and started fussing over him and that had been the final humiliation. He’d tried to wash his clothes and turned his underwear baby blue, and it had taken him days to get the last of the paint off. Bits of it stubbornly lingered under his fingernails to remind him of what a dork he was. Well, that and the blue undies.

  Lissa did find time to bake him cookies. She’d dropped them by his place on her way out of town.

  He’d tried to play it cool by leaning one hand against the door frame but had missed the mark and nearly lost his balance. Again.

  She’d pretended not to notice. “I just stopped by to make sure you didn’t break anything.”

  “Naw, I’m fine.” His briefs were another story, but he wisely kept that bit of information to himself.

  “That’s good,” she said, handing over the paper plate of goodies. “But if you had broken something, I’d have signed your cast.”

  Would you have kissed it and made it all better? That had been an unusually clever remark. Too bad he hadn’t thought of it until she was long gone. But even if he had, he’d have never gotten up the nerve to say it. Instead, he’d said, “Then I’d have to save the cast ’cause your signature will probably be valuable someday.”

  That had made her smile and making her smile had made his day.

  “See you soon,” she’d called as she go
t in her car.

  “Yeah, see you,” he’d called back.

  And he had ever since, every day on TV. He’d liked her on Facebook, too, not that she’d noticed. It wasn’t much, but it was all he had and it was better than nothing. Barely.

  “I wonder if she’s coming to the reunion,” he mused.

  Next to him Chica whined.

  “Yeah, you’re right, what does it matter?” Jonathan muttered. These days she was way too busy to hang out with nerdy guys she’d hung with as a kid. And if he went to the reunion, history would repeat itself and the high school hunks would squeeze him out.

  He listened as the guest expert talked about how to make a first date with an internet match-up successful. If only there was an expert out there who could help a guy have a successful encounter with a woman he’d known all his life.

  “I can’t keep just seeing her this way,” he said to Chica. “And I can’t go on doing nothing. She won’t stay single forever.”

  As if, when she finally walked down the aisle, it would be to him! “You’re dreaming,” he told himself.

  Well, so what if he was? A man needed dreams, needed to think big. Go big or go home.

  Oh, yeah. He was already home. Forget about it, he advised himself.

  The morning show ended and Jonathan turned off the TV, leaving Chica in charge of yard patrol and napping, and then got in his car and drove down the long, gravel road toward town. He passed a few large lots with big houses on them, but mostly here, in his neck of the woods, the land remained dense with trees and brush.

  He liked it that way. Jonathan Templar, rugged mountain man. Well, mountain man, anyway.

  The town itself looked picturesque on this sunny morning. The window boxes and hanging planters that decorated the quaint Bavarian-style buildings overflowed with red geraniums and pink and white begonias. And with the mountains rising up behind, he could almost believe he was somewhere in the German Alps. A few people were stirring, some running errands, some visiting, others sweeping off the sidewalks in front of their shops.

  It sure wasn’t New York or Seattle but that was okay with Jonathan. Icicle Falls was perfect the way it was. Who would want to live anywhere else?

  Lissa Castle, that was who. Would she ever give up her TV career and move back to Icicle Falls? Probably not. Would he say goodbye to this beautiful place and follow her wherever her career led? In a heartbeat, if only she’d ask him.

  Even a man caught in the net of unrequited love had to think about other things once in a while. Jonathan parked his car on Center Street and turned his mind to business.

  He had plenty to keep him busy the rest of the morning, so busy in fact that he wound up working clear through lunch. He found himself with twenty minutes to kill before he had to be at Mountain Escape Books to work on Pat Wilder’s computer, so he decided to duck into Bavarian Brews for a quick pick-me-up.

  The aroma of coffee kissed his taste buds as he walked in. Yes, he was probably going to go a million years without sex, might never connect with the woman of his dreams, but at least he had coffee.

  Coffee. Sex. Was there really any comparison? Jonathan frowned at the thought of what he was settling for in life.

  Cecily Sterling came in right behind him. “Hi, Jonathan. You need a caffeine fix, too?” she asked as they got in line to place their orders.

  “Yeah,” he said, showing off his suave to the most beautiful woman in Icicle Falls. Jonathan Templar, lady killer.

  He was racking his brain to come up with something clever to say when Todd Black, who had just entered the coffee shop, stepped confidently into the conversation. “By this time of day, who doesn’t need a hit?”

  Cecily rolled her eyes at him. “You make it sound like you’ve been up for hours.”

  Todd owned the Man Cave, a tavern on the edge of town. He kept late hours and so was bound to sleep late.

  “I was up early this morning doing the books. Not easy after a hard day’s night.”

  “I’m sure you work very hard watching over your kingdom of Kahlua,” she sneered.

  “It’s not a bad kingdom. By the way, Kahlua and chocolate go well together. Bring me some more of yours and I’ll prove it.”

  “I’ll take your word for it.”

  Jonathan had been standing in line behind Cecily, but somehow Todd managed to cut in front of him. He watched with a mixture of irritation and envy as Todd leaned in close to her and said, “One of these days you’re going to watch some sappy movie where the couple is dancing real slow and you’re going to remember my offer to give you a tango lesson.”

  She shook her head and moved away a step. He closed the distance.

  Oh, this was a master in action. Jonathan eavesdropped shamelessly.

  “Or you’re going to get an urge to come check out the action on my pinball machine. You said you were good but so far you haven’t proved it.”

  “I don’t have to prove anything to you.” She turned to look at him and they almost brushed lips.

  “You’re invading my space,” she said, frowning.

  “I bet that’s not all I’m invading. How you sleeping these days, Cecily? Do you get hot? Throw off the covers?”

  Her cheeks went pink. “I sleep fine, thanks.” She took two giant steps away and placed her order, leaving Todd with a confident smirk on his face.

  Jenni, the barista, whipped up Cecily’s coconut mocha latte and set it on the counter, but Cecily chose that moment to send a text on her cell phone. Todd’s drink order came up and she put away her phone and picked up her to-go cup. They stood trading words that, Jonathan suspected, had secret messages attached, then, with her cheeks even pinker, she left the coffee shop. Todd watched her go, smiling like a man who’d just landed a fish and was now contemplating how he’d cook it.

  Speaking of cooking, there’d been enough current zipping back and forth between those two to light the giant fir tree in the town square at Christmas and the rest of the town, too. How did guys like Todd manage to stir up a woman’s hormones with nothing more than a few well-chosen words? Jonathan wished he knew.

  The only way to find out was to ask.

  Todd was about to saunter out the door. Jonathan grabbed his drink and hurried after him. “Uh, Todd. Can I ask you something?”

  Todd turned, an easy smile on his face, his brows raised. “Sure. What?”

  “How do you do that?”

  The brows knit. “Do what?”

  Okay, maybe he didn’t want to have this conversation in the middle of Bavarian Brews. He opened the door and motioned that they should go out on the street. Once outside he wasn’t sure how to frame his question.

  “What’s on your mind, computer man?” Todd prompted him.

  “I was watching you with Cecily. You’re smooth.”

  Todd shrugged and took a drink of coffee.

  “How do you do it? How do you know what to say?”

  “I just say what comes into my head.” Todd watched Cecily running across the street toward Sweet Dreams. “She likes being chased. But you know what? She’s about ready to let me catch her, and she’s going to like getting caught even more.” The smile on his face oozed confidence.

  Well, Jonathan would have confidence, too, if he looked like Johnny Depp’s kid brother. He realized he was frowning. He probably looked like a pitiful loser.

  “Woman troubles?” Todd guessed.

  “Always.”

  “Yeah, well, women and trouble go together.” He clapped Jonathan on the back. “But you’ve got to hang in there. Never give up. That’s what Winston Churchill said, and he saved England in World War II.”

  Jonathan nodded and trudged off down the street. Winston Churchill only had to save England. Jonathan wanted to win Lissa Castle. And he didn’t look like Todd Black.

  He was halfway to the bookstore when he saw Tina Swift coming down the sidewalk from the other direction. Tina was recently divorced and had half the men in town sniffing after her. Hardly surprising
, considering how cute she was.

  Cute and stuck-up. She’d been in his class, a cheerleader and a member of the top social tier at Icicle Falls High. She’d never paid any attention to Jonathan then or in the twelve years after graduation. It was only once she’d opened a shop that sold imported lace and china three years ago and needed someone to design a website that she’d remembered his existence.

  Now she’d spotted him and was smiling as if they were buds, which meant she wanted something. And it sure wasn’t a date.

  Jonathan pretended not to see and crossed the street.

  Undeterred, she called his name and ran after him.

  Okay, he gave up. He stopped.

  She hardly allowed him time to say a self-conscious hello before asking, “Did you get your reunion invitation?”

  “Uh, yeah.”

  “I hope you put the date on the calendar.”

  “Well,” he began.

  She didn’t let him finish. “It’s going to be even better than the ten-year. We’ve already heard from a ton of people. Cam Gordon...”

  Football fathead and snob. There’s someone I want to see.

  “Feron Prince...”

  The Prince of Darkness. He stuffed me in a locker when we were freshmen.

  “Kyle Long. He was a friend of yours, wasn’t he?”

  “Still is.” And Jonathan didn’t need to go to the reunion to see him.

  “I think Rand is coming.”

  Which meant Jonathan wouldn’t be, for sure.

  “Did you know he got married?”

  Married? Jonathan smiled. “No.” So Rand was out of circulation. Well, well.

  “Oh, and we just heard from Lissa Castle, our very own celebrity. She’s definitely coming.”

  Rand was out of circulation and Lissa was coming. Was he imagining it or were the stars aligning? (Whatever that meant.) If he went to the reunion, he’d have a whole weekend of close proximity to Lissa. Maybe he could separate her from her adoring fans long enough to talk with her, impress her, maybe even dance with her. Except he couldn’t dance.

  “Jonathan?”

  Tina was looking at him, eyebrows raised.

  He pulled himself back into the present. “What?”